Monday, March 2, 2009

I Hate...

Well, it feels really surreal to be writing this...probably I've lost it or am going to pretty soon. But the fact is that I never thought I 'hate' something. The idea of hating something or someone seemed really appaling. Not that it was a philosophical stance or anything but just that, until very recently, I used to think that I'm capable of dealing with things, people, situations...not a problem, I can always 'think my way through.' 'You don't always have to react, right.' 'Just take it cool, think things through and you'll know what to do, how to react bla bla. Give people (peace) a chance.

Urrrrrrgh. Nonsense. You can give people a chance only if they are willing to give themselves or you a chance; not otherwise. And,  my friend, that's where the problem lies. That's why I 'hate'
situations where everyone is equally frustrated and incapacitated cause they really can't do much to help. As a result, they play the one-up game. You wanna see, I can flex my muscles here, just you wait, gotcha! You think I'm going to give you an easy time? Well, do I get it? Wait and watch how I screw things up for you.

What's the solution? I really don't know yaar. I think it'd help if everybody came clean and just vented 'out' and not 'at' someone. Why can't everybody say, look here I'm really fucked up, and there isn't a lot I can do about it; can you help? 

Let's face it. There isn't going to be a second coming anytime soon (no religious sentiments please, I'm being literal) and I don't see any messaih around. The ones who claim to be are even more fucked up than you can imagine. So, it's really up to you. Do you want to necessarily hurt someone or do you want someone to listen to you, say you're going to be alright, maybe. offer a pat on the back?

Be ready to lay bare. Don't hide your wounds. You're creating more by doing that. Remember, it's never too damn late.



9 comments:

winter sunshine said...

You're going to be alright :)...and we'll get you de-toxed well...don worry ;)I HATE hating anybody too...but sometimes..peace just doesn't have a chance...ever wondered about fighting FOR peace?...maybe it's time :)

Once upon a time.... said...

You are not alone, buddy. Not that I hate anybody (no, not yet); I'm sick of my life here. Wish I could go the edge of a forest and live on the tomatoes and potatoes I grow. I can't. I'm forever stuck in the rut of straightening out the grammar & punctuation creases in every bloody sentence I read.

I want out.

RASIKA :) said...

Seriously...I wish we were never taught stuff like.."never be impatient", "never shout at others", "stay calm", "don't be rude", "never say no to others"...So how exactly do we let those bottled up emotions out? Aren't these natural? So what do we do while trying to be a real good babes? Stave that frustration in and live/toil?

Vaishali Sabhahit said...

I second, third, and fourth you! All limits to self-restraint are tested, man! God only help us!

Rekha Muralidharan said...

That is sooo true man. I think we all land up in such a situation because we are compelled by those above us to do this. They want us to fight it out amongst each other in the hope that we will over achieve, not realizing that its actually screwing up everyone's lives.
I don't think I've ever felt this frustrated before and just wanted to say your article is like a balm to everyone going through this phase right now......

Thangjam said...

Emotionally charged, but honest. Hate the situation, not the situation-creator. Hate the clutter, not the clutter-creator...and clean it up! It's your choice: clean it or just lament.

Anitha said...

Good one Sam. It might be very tough for you now, but you are gonna be alright. :)

loveena moses said...

I'm not sure what has disturbed you so much but it applies to a lot of us.. whatever you have written is very true, I love the way you have put it! Like your just talking, venting out your frustration.. not typing.. its like you mean every single word and I can imagine the kind of expressions you would have had on your face when you wrote that..

ek-aani said...

spill, spill, spill! love the sheer energy shining thru ur writings.

great posts :-)